so i havent righted on my blog in a while becuase i havent felt very good and sad. i forgot to update on what happeend with my cousin tommy so i will start out by telling everyone what happened.
right after christmas alyssa had to baby sit us because mom wanted to go to happy hour. it had been a long time since i had seen alyssa because my mom just had friends over to talk with her in her bedroom instead of going out to happy hour. so of course i was really happy to see alyssa (mostly happy in my pants).
after alyssa came over tommy started asking about the bud that i told him i could get. i had forgotten about it so i went to the fridge and got it out. at first alyssa told me that we couldnt have any of it but tommy got really upset. tommy said that if she didnt let us have it he would tell my mom that she touched him in his private places. alyssa agreed.
after about 30 minutes tommy started getting really mean and started talking in spanish. i didnt know alyssa could speak spanish too but aparently she can. i cant. they both started talkign and drinking more of the bud but wouldnt let me have any. then after a while they started kissing and rubbing eachother on my couch. i told them they had to stop or i would tell my mom, so tommy grabbed me by my hair (what little bit i have) and put me outside and locked the sliding glass door behind me. it was 20 degrees outside that night so i was freezing. all i could do is sit at the door and watch tommy and alyssa do what i saw my mom and that one brown man do that one night when i accidentaly walked in on them while they were making animal noises. i started throwing up everywhere.
i woke up the next morning while i was still outside. my mom asked me what in the heck i was doing outside. i didnt want tommy to get mad at me so i told her that i was pretending i was a dog and fell asleep. she yelled at me and told me my punishment was to stay outside all day. i didnt like that very much.
tommy came to the glass door and told me that even though the beer was good i didnt get him the right kind of bud. he said that i had until tomorrow to get it or he would tell my mom that i was gay. i thought gay meant happy, so i told him to go ahead and do it because i was gay and proud of it. he went and told mom and she started going ballistic. she called up the preacher from chruch and he came over to talk to me in my bedroom in private.
he tried to get me to do horrible things with him which is why i dont feel good and am sad today. i have been faking sick so i wouldnt have to go back to school and see bobby swanson but my mom is making me go back tomorrow. i dont know what im going to do.